Dear Elise,
You are 3 years old, and I am a bit late writing this to you since your birthday was more than a week ago. As I reflect on the past 3 years and your womb-time, I am completely in awe on the one hand and laughing to myself on the other hand. 3 years ago on the day of your birth, you made your grand entrance and you made it quickly. It was as if you were saying, " Here I am!!! Are you ready for me, world?" And you haven't stopped saying it. You don't say it in those exact words, but each day you say it in new ways with your personality and your actions. Each day you surprise us with your silly, often loud, and joyful antics.


You remind me of myself in many ways. I remember my own mother telling me to "be more quiet and gentle like Our Lady" and I struggled with it and still do. I am impulsive and headstrong. I am excitable and expressive and not in a quiet, controlled way, but in a big loud way. I am forcefully passionate. And I see many of these qualities in you even at this young age. This great emotion has potential to be both a great strength and a great weakness.

Already you are proving that point. At times, you sit, tense and rigid, unable to control your emotions enough to even move. We speak to you gently and direct you step by step to breathe, and let go of the emotions that seem to hold you captive at times. At other times, your passionate emotions burst forth in the form of impulsive hugs, smiles that reach from ear to ear and make your eyes squint, and giggles that bubble out from depths of the joy you hold inside.


You are by far my most cuddly kid. I never would have guessed because as a newborn, you weren't about the cuddles much at all. You rolled over early, you crawled early, you walked way early. It was like you had better places to be than hanging out in Mommy's arms all day. Apparently at around age 2 1/2 you realized that Mommy's arms are actually quite nice and very comforting when you are tired, cranky, or scared.


I admit that I often don't know just how to handle your extreme emotions. You have been waking up a lot at night and often have a hard time getting back to sleep on your own. Perhaps you are having nightmares, or perhaps you are just very disoriented, having woken up in the middle of a sleep cycle. Whatever the case, I often climb into bed with you and snuggle. Sometimes I hold your hand, and sometimes you rub my arm as you fall back asleep. Part of me is so tired and frustrated, but another part of me is embracing this period of extra snuggles.


But your emotions are also a true joy for us to experience. Daily you make us all smile with the funny things you say. You love to copy Kayla and often repeat things she says in a unique rendition of your own. You laugh at the silly voices Daddy makes, and you guffaw (yes, guffaw) when he tickles you. And the faces you make crack each and every one of us up right down to Ava. You scrunch up your nose at us, you stick your tongue out, you purse your lips, and you draw your lips in a pout, and you smile so that it feels like a ray of sun shining down on us.




You are our little monkey. You are our silly pants. You are our "Leesie". You are our princess. You are our pumkin. You are our cupcake. You are our little squirt.

More than anything, you are our daughter, our precious gift from God, our Elise Marianna.
Happy Birthday, Sweetheart! We can't wait to see what this next year holds with you!
